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On Paralysis

I've come to realize that I'm scared. I'm scared what others will think of me. I'm scared that I won't be liked or what I say or think won't be of value to others. In truth, I'm paralyzed by the thought that what I want to contribute won't be appreciated by others, or at the very least, they'll disagree.

Who cares what others think? I've been letting the fact that other people have their own opinions persuade me from letting mine be heard. For what? The fear of them disagreeing with me? That's just silly.

It's time to stop to letting the fear of anonymity, of being ignored, of being disagreed with, prevent me from just documenting my own thoughts. I'll be honest with myself: there's the likelihood that no one is going to read this, and that's ok. I'm going to write for myself. I'm going to document my own processes for my own good, not for anyone else.

Paralysis begone.